yikes. I've been busy (?) these past few days and my life, in all honestly, was very uneventful. except for twitter and facebook and occasional, random reads in the world wide web, I actually do nothing more. Sad, isn't it? I'm young and bright and beautiful (LOL to these), but I'm so boring. Oh, I  did start cross-stitching! I'm quite excited about it. It would've been  my gift for grandma's birthday. Sadly, I have to delay my gift due to the fact that I was not able to finish it on time. haytz. such a pity. I'm still working on it and will be giving it to her as a late birthday gift. In addition to that, I'm drinking tea again after a long period of pause from it. and yes, i've been listening to classical music again. just like college days. I miss both! :))

Anyhoo, I've been browsing facebook's news feed earlier and found this article on yournextshoes, which was all about Megan Fox's chic gladiator sandals. I'm actually loving it! Here's Megan Fox! and that to-die-for sandals, which I want, of course!

Except for Megan hotness (it's a given, yes i know), 

 what totally knocked me off were that pair of eye candy/ies!

Oh, what I would give for these. lol. *figuratively speaking*

Fab isn't she? click here to visit the site: http://b2l.me/acymcn

this is za5m. i'm just an ordinary girl doing what an ordinary girl do:
"drooling over some amazing pair of shoes!"

and this is just another idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe!

signing off#

i'm toast. i skipped school again for the nth time. i know i got to stop doing this or else i'll regret it big time. but really, i'm totally bothered. i'm not sure what's the reason why i'm being like this. i mean, i do not have a problem whatsoever with anything, at all. i have this irritating feeling, though. this nagging feeling of being out of place. this desire for things sooo much different from what i am doing now.. i had this before. but the urge wasn't as strong as what i'm feeling now. or maybe, i'm just looking for a scapegoat for my laziness. i don't know. i don't even know why i'm saying all this. i just have this sudden desire to rant about everything. i am just totally doing this out of randomness. i just felt i have to let it all out and i'm typing like crazy without stopping to check some errors. i don't care i just have to say this or else i'll blow up (i doubt it..)!

i always think why do i have to become someone who can't express herself effectively? why do i always have to be the one to understand others. why am i a nice person? why can't i live life selfishly? why am i so EMO right now i even painted my nails black? why? i do not know. and i am sure i won't know the answer for a long time. yesterday, out of boredom, i skipped school and went to SM City. yes, i did. spent an hour at national bookstore looking for anything, mostly photography and arts & crafts books. then, i went to the cinemas to watch a movie but realized mama will come this saturday so i'll  just watch the movie together with her. that way, i'll save some money. but just as i decided to go home, i saw PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE store and went inside. guess what? i'm supposed to save a hundred pesos by skipping the movie BUT BUT BUT after some minutes, i went out of the store holding 2 papers bags. yes. the impulsive buyer once again invaded the mall. and out of the blue bought tw0 black shoes. "BUT they are soo yummy can't help but eat them" said the impulsive buyer/black-shoe addict. and eventually added, "i decided to stop thinking and just start doing. twas part of that practice as well. if i did not buy them, i'll regret it". oh well, i understand her. i just do. (Hopeless)

now, my story went up a higher level. from being an EMO to being IMPULSIVE. how's that? i may be the queen of randomness. i should change this site's name from "idiosyncratic memoirs of a self-confessed wannabe" to "idiosyncratic memoirs of a self-confessed implusive emo!". Ugh.. that just sounded sooo foul. yeah. maybe not. how about "draft diary of casual vanity"? sounds better, huh? or just plain "queen of randomness"...anyways, why am i talking about the title of my blog right now? i'm supposed to be ranting all my rage for a "i-dont-even-know-whats-wrong-with-my-life" entry! gaaasssh! i'm all happy earlier. now i'm all emo. bipolar much?

anyways, i'm tired. i'll stop this emo-ish and continue next time... i hope people i know won't read my blog or won't stumble upon this while surfing the net. aaahh. i hate it when they know everything about me. LOL. i'm crazy and changes mood every time. oh, i'm supposed to finish this entry already... fine. well. this has been a good time. thank you my blog. and well. i still thank God for everything. after all, HE has always been really good to me. Lord, i don't hate my life. i just have issues. You understand it, right? i know YOU do. you always have. THANK you very much. :D and please continue taking care of me even though i'm this stubborn. :)) thank you again. and again.

i am za5m. a 22-year old law student and self-proclaimed queen of randomness.

and this is another random idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.

signing off#

While editing posts for my other accounts, i stumble upon recent pictures of my iGoogle homepage/s. I really think these are cool. I love how you can customize your homepage using pictures or design of your liking or preference - makes it more personal and intimate. yikes. i just said i have an intimate relationship with my iGoogle homepage! LOL. Plus it spares you of same ole plain, boring view. :))

This is za(5)m. a 22-year old law sophomore from the Philippines.
and this is an idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.
signing off#

Today was our preliminary exam in Labor Standards, considered by many upperclassmen as one that should be attended to with more effort and time than some of the other second year subjects, especially when you are under Father Gus. Yes. Him.

Under him, I took the fastest exam ever, maybe the fastest in my entire lifetime. LOL. Less than 30 minutes, 50 items, 2 points each, TRUE or FALSE. After 10-15 minutes, I already finished reading everything. For the remaining time, I rechecked and reviewed my answers, though that does not necessarily mean it made me confident. I was even more confused! ( _*@* _) Only God knows how I prepared for that exam, or did not, rather. fffffuuuuu♥

Anyhow, these were the things that kept me busy the whole night (instead of reading for the exam):


1. Posted BigBang videos on my tumblr account: ~HARU HARU~
    Been listening to their songs 24/7, although I can't really understand them.

 
2. Took pictures of some of my clothes, and uploaded them at ~Haru at Poupee~ so I could win additional ribbons. I played all night. 

3. While on the process of taking photos of my closet, I tried some and then took snapshots of myself. :) ♥fuu♥ for pictures, click here: ~CLOSET SNAPSHOTS~

♥ I am za5m. A 22-year old Law Sophomore from the Philippines.
And this is today's idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.
signing off #

Lakas Atenista held last July 03, 2010 its annual JUST DANCE event. It was the first event I attended since the start of the school year so I totally obliged myself to look for an ensemble befitting this years theme, which was GLAMROCK. I guess my effort was not wasted considering the appreciation I received. Although, I did not bag the night's Glamrock award, I was not bothered or disappointed at all. I just love putting on pieces and showing off some good results. Just that and I'm already blessed. I was more saddened by the fact that I was not able to take a SOLO picture of myself slash my outfit that night. I became so busy catching up with some friends (who left law school for other opportunities, or some classmates who are now assigned to other sections) that it completely left my mind.

Anyhow, the event was a great success and I believe it was a money and a night spent well. Those who attended would absolutely agree with me in this (who wouldn't when booze suddenly became free for all? plus great music and hot dance numbers! and the ENCORE! no one will ever forget the two sexy silhouettes at the end of the program!) LOL. Well, we're not just your typical dorks and nerds who spend hours everyday reading codals and cases. We have lives, too! Or at least some do. chu! ♥

These were pictures taken during the event.
(Special thanks to Mr. Martin Samson, L.A. president for the pictures)

 This is the official poster of the event.

Smokin' hot fire dancing made the temperature rising!

Photostrips! I love. 

With my law school friends Maki, Jen, Bjorn and Clark. 

These were just random shots. 

Jen and I originally planned to have our
photo taken together with Maki.
But anyways, it's all great.

The Tent, Matina Town Square.

This was the view from the back part.

Included in this year's JD  was the night's highlight:
The Battle of the Bands.

 Yey! This is us rockin' a good time.

Jen's a gem that night. oh, she always is.

On the other hand, Marco (with glasses) was actually
studying that night in a coffee shop in front of The Tent!

People kept bugging him until he agreed to just go 

and party with us (in his t-shirt-shorts-slippers outfit)! LOL.

Lakas Atenista residents (+ Jackie of TM, center).

I must say this was the best picture of the night,
well, at least for me! LOL.

It's the only picture wherein I was photographed
completely with my whole outfit!

That's me ~ second from the right on
military cropped jacket and acid-washed jeans. :))

This is me again, za5m. a 22-year old Law Sophomore from the Philippines.

And this is another idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.

signing off #

I made a collage of some of the looks I sported years before. They're not trendy, but I think they all speak of my style as an individual. (pictures are not really great, though.) ...
Check my style blog called ~CLOSET SNAPSHOTS~

For me, style is like a representation of one's individuality, of his/her personality. My style changes every time depending on my mood or the occasion. I don't like to limit my choices by sticking to just one set of style. But thinking of it now, my style is like a melting pot of different styles. I wear almost everything wearable, except fur (I'm a pro-life advocate) and mediocre heels. My daily outfits are not actually what you call striking and trendy but they always possess this idiosyncratic look of mine, which, as my friends put it, only I can usually pull off. Something that blends but at the same time identifiable. Something silent but edgy. I guess I can call it as that.

I would not say I am the fashionista type because honestly, I am far from being one. I love to think my idiosyncrasies in fashion and style and beauty are still in the experimentation phase having been interested into the these things only on the later part of college (but I think experimentation=playing=FUN). When it comes to choosing what to put in my closet, the piece that I am particularly been obsessing on are outerwears (jackets, blazers, vests, capes, hoodies, etc.). I feel the happiest whenever I find one or a couple of such beautiful and unique items.The white cropped blazer I'm wearing in the collage above used to be one of my favorites. :)) yepa!

I desire to say a lot more things but I choose to stop here for the moment. Since I would be blogging more in the days to come, I will leave other details for next entries!

I am za5m. a 22-year-old law student from the Philippines.
And this is an idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.
signing off #

This blog is called "The Idiosyncratic Memoirs of a Self-Confessed Wannabe".

I have been keeping a diary since high school. I tried several times to make blog/s before, but they all fell into nothingness since I basically ignored them all. It was not due to the busy schedule. It was just that I like writing in my diary more than I love blogging. So, what made me start blogging seriously? I'm not too sure. But maybe the idea that I can do a lot more here than in my diary.

And what makes this blog different than the ones I had before? Firstly, I really took my time in editing the lay-out (although, I know I'm not the most technie and creative person in the world). I tried finding the right fit for my header, the right description, the right font and the right everything. I'm not even sure if they were alright now. But I think it's the most presentable blog I've ever had. I chose black as the background color because it's my favorite. I haven't got any presentable header, hence, my own pictures. Second reason, it's something super personal. LOL.

So, why wannabe?

Wannabe because I wanna be a lot of things. I wanna do gazillions of stuffs. I wanna be in many different places. I wanna cook and eat myriads of dishes from all over the world. Wanna be doing all. But at the same time, I am very much aware that even if I can do anything my heart desires, I can never do everything. That's why for me. I will always be a wannabe.

I just want this blog to be my connection to the rest of the world. And maybe, in the long run, meet people from different nations.

 

My name is Za5m, a 22-year-old law student from the Philippines.

And this is an idiosyncratic memoir of a self-confessed wannabe.

signing off#