I'm disappointed. BIG TIME. I thought this would be the THE DAY, but it turned out to be a day I wish never came. I thought I'd be okay now, having slept my frustrations through the night. They say "tomorrow is another day". This is not another. This is the worst day. I feel soo down that I do not want take on anything, at all. I feel like dying would be the easiest way out. It scares me.

People won't understand what I'm feeling right now even if I tell them. They would just look down on me. Laugh and mock. They don't know what disappointment is and how depressing it is because they don't care about the small things the way I do. In fact, I think I even care about the smallest things than I do when something big happen. Maybe because I find happiness on those minute details in a way that I couldn't when I achieve something big. The little things are what make me smile heartily and genuinely. So basically, they are also the source of my greatest frustrations. And the worst part is? People don't understand for the reason that this world does not give a damn to these kind of things. All the world would take notice is the greatness, the glory, the prestige. In this world of materialism, small has no room. Or at least that's what people think until they lose everything.

***(this is just me on my oh so irritating day because people are such a disappointment. i can't believe i trusted them. and i can't believe i'm overreacting.)***

A conversation with shopperfriend last night.

Ianne (I call her Ean) is the closest female friend I had in college.

 We became really close during the third or fourth year.

 All I remember was we were always together, every day and every night. 

What we love:

 malling, shopping, shoes, gossip girl, one tree hill, 

bumming, road trip, food trip, hair dye, badminton.

Now I'm missing college and I'm missing her, super! A shoutout to shopperfriend:

Puppy dog eyes. *Sasha mode* (sasha is ean's furry friend)

So serious. LOL.

This summarizes what I'm feeling right now:  *points downward

I know right. 

I'm hating the world but hey, 

if hating goes in pink, why not!

                                                    

I've been a big Roger Federer fan since I first saw (on tv) him play a finals match against Rafael Nadal during the 2006 French Open, in which Federer lost. He may have lost the game, but the way he played left a really big impact on me. I mean, I was not a tennis fan before that, and I only knew the Williams sisters at the time. I didn't even know he was something great and totally famous in tennis. It was only a little later after that I discovered that he was considered to be one of the greatest player of all time in tennis, and now, I guess, is being considered as the greatest of all time. Just sayin'. 

In a recent concluded match of US Open 2010 Monday night, the 16-time Grand Slam winner hit a more impressive (than the one he did last year) between-the-legs shot during his first-round win over Argentine, Brian Dabul. The shot itself was already amazing, but what made it really remarkable was the fact the it ended a winner! =) Hooray to the Fed Express! ahaha. 

There are a lot of reasons why I adore Federer, really. He's the only male athlete I've ever been obsessed with. He's not that much of looker if you compare him to some of sports hunks (insert beckham, ronaldo, nadal, etc) but hey, his plays are already enough to keep me drooling! =)

I've been a pink fan since high school. Not too much, though. But how can I resist when it is this kind of pink?

1) Nokia C3

I stumbled upon a new nokia phone which come in a lovely, unforgettable hot pink! *drooling already.

It sports a full QWERTY keyboard plus an Ovi mail (for easy emails) and Ovi chat. Called the Nokia C3, it boasts conversational SMS chat, so you can keep on top of your text dialogue and you’ll find your favourite contacts right there on the homescreen, where you’ll also see news and alerts. It also boasts wi-fi connectivity, tw0-mega pixel camera, 2.4-inch screen and support for up to 8GB of storage on a microSD card. Other colors inlcude golden white and slate gray. (nokia connectivity).. 

So, basically, I went to the mall to inquire about this nokia phone and well, I was quite surprised that it's not something too expensive with retail price of at most P8,000. How cool is that? Plus the most important feature that got me was this: "Get live Facebook and Twitter feeds right in your home screen" ~ ahaha. XD

I'm planning to buy one within this week. I hope this will push through. I uberly dig this. (oh please, money come to me already. Friday, why must you be sooo far? ***exag)

2) Pink Blazer

Blazers-slash-outerwears are my favorite clothing piece/s. Ergo, this Vanessa Bruno blazer would definitely make me wanna scream  "LOVE". iHEART. definitely. (although, I don't think i'll be able to buy this brand. but hey, i'll look for a perfect alternative).

3) Make Up Laptop

I'm a self-cconfessed net junkie. I spend hours everyday surfing the net doing anything. I live for facebook and twitter and online streaming. I update myself through reading online news. This definitely would want me to just stay online for more hours a day. *yes, there's a real make up, and a nail-art printer. plus the screen/monitor can turn into a mirror, literally. girly and HOT!